Have you been praying that God use you? Have you been praying that all things that hinder your walk with Him be removed? When you act or speak in the flesh and know that it was wrong do you feel a great conviction? Are even the small things you do under scrutiny by
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One morning, during my devotional time, God pointed something out to me. I was reading my Bible and don't remember exactly what scripture I was reading, but was something along the lines of being holy. God put the thought in my head that, if I wanted, I could aspire to be 100% in His will all the time. He was telling me it was possible for me to get to the place where I no longer sin! Whoa whoa whoa!! Stop the presses!! Hold the phone and hold the horses!! Slam on those brakes!! At first, just thinking of not sinning any more brought the words "blasphemy" and "sacrilegious" to mind. After all, Jesus was the only one who was able to not sin! I'm not Jesus!
I tried to push it out of my mind since it was obviously wrong. It was as easy to push out of my mind as it is to throw away a paper. It was as easy to push out of my mind as it is to knock fruit flies off a piece of rotten fruit using a toothpick. It was as easy to push out of my mind as it would be for me to push a 10-ton boulder out of my way. Get the picture??
When I hear God teaching me something new. I always meditate on it. If it is something that I can't push out of my mind then that pretty much tells me that I didn't think of it myself. I look for scriptures to either prove I was hearing wrong or to prove I was hearing right. I keep asking God to verify or sometimes clarify what He told me. In this case I was sure I heard wrong. However, the more I struggled the more firmly God gripped me. The more I protested the more He calmly insisted that it was so.
